This one... it's complicated, deciding how to feel about someone else seeing this. It was such a public clash, after all. By now, he's pretty sure that rumors and retellings have spread like wildfire throughout the Order, and he hardly knows every single person there. Plenty of people he's never spoken to already know his name and face--he'd already accepted that they know about this, too. But he'd been so caught up in what he was doing at the time that it's extremely uncomfortable to relive it with a clearer mind, especially around someone he still considers a stranger.
But it could be worse? There are things that he would never forgive someone for seeing, regardless of whether or not they had any control over it--this isn't one of those moments, even if he's not happy about it. Even with them getting dragged into the thick of the battle, all the tension and chaos help to overpower the heightened emotion, Alma's rage drowning out the heartache that might've otherwise slipped through Kanda's thick, thick walls.
...Mostly, anyway. But he can't make her unhear Can't you forgive that? or What did he want from you? Just your friendship! And beyond all that, Alma is...
...
When the memory ends, he holds himself very stiffly, and doesn't meet her gaze.
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This one... it's complicated, deciding how to feel about someone else seeing this. It was such a public clash, after all. By now, he's pretty sure that rumors and retellings have spread like wildfire throughout the Order, and he hardly knows every single person there. Plenty of people he's never spoken to already know his name and face--he'd already accepted that they know about this, too. But he'd been so caught up in what he was doing at the time that it's extremely uncomfortable to relive it with a clearer mind, especially around someone he still considers a stranger.
But it could be worse? There are things that he would never forgive someone for seeing, regardless of whether or not they had any control over it--this isn't one of those moments, even if he's not happy about it. Even with them getting dragged into the thick of the battle, all the tension and chaos help to overpower the heightened emotion, Alma's rage drowning out the heartache that might've otherwise slipped through Kanda's thick, thick walls.
...Mostly, anyway. But he can't make her unhear Can't you forgive that? or What did he want from you? Just your friendship! And beyond all that, Alma is...
...
When the memory ends, he holds himself very stiffly, and doesn't meet her gaze.
In a guarded tone:]
What.