[catchall] Kate

[sixillusions]

An introvert and a shadow walk into a haunted house

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[sixillusions]

[Yes, well...]

It won't make her happy to let her get to that point again.

[sootprints]

Is that what she really wants? Did she say that?

[sixillusions]

[He hasn't talked to her yet, so he can't say for certain--but personally, he'd be surprised if Camille disagreed. After what he saw in her memories...

But that's not his to share. So, instead:]

What she wants isn't more important than people's lives.

[sootprints]

I just...

... I'm worried that if we keep killing each other to save people's lives, we're going to run out of lives to save.

[sixillusions]

...

[He doesn't like it either. He's looked and looked, and pushed the Overseers in the only ways he knows how, and it's immensely frustrating that he's got nothing to show for it. There are bits and pieces of information floating around, yes, and murmurs of progress, but that means nothing to Kanda if the bodies are just going to continue piling up around them.

He liked Cloud, but he doesn't hate Camille. He has no particular urge to run out the door and end her life. But... he's a destroyer, not a savior. He doesn't know what else can be done for her that doesn't involve an unacceptable level of risk.]

What would you want?

[If Kate was the one who'd taken a life, who would've readily taken another once she was cornered, if not for the last-minute intervention of the Overseers--if she was left to her own devices afterwards, waiting for the inevitable loss of control, for the bloodlust to take her over a second time--would she want to be allowed to live anyway? Would she not want to be freed of her anguish?]

[sootprints]

I...

[ ... as she thinks about it, really thinks about it, smoke starts to come out in a haze. ]

... I know it sounds childish to say I wouldn't want to die, and I wouldn't want to hurt anyone either. But, still... I can't accept that those as the only options.

[sixillusions]

[This answer isn't surprising, really; he sighs, but it isn't angry. Just kind of... tired.]

Then you'll have to tell those three to work faster. [The Overseers, or whoever else is working behind the scenes, if she knows. As far as Kanda's been able to tell, his own hands are tied.] But make a choice in the meantime.

[Because as it stands--those are the only two options. All he can do for her is try and help her come to terms with that.]

[sootprints]

[ well

she stays for a bit to absorb that, but then she just turns and quietly leaves. ]