I'm not going to make friends with a bunch of strangers who'll probably be dead within a month.
[Lavi notwithstanding, because he is Lavi. Also if my canonpoint was anything but what it is he probably would've made a shitty comment about Boothill by now so thank god I changed my mind]
[Who could've predicted this response. Absolutely no one]
Even if we make it out of here alive, the Rabbit and I are going right back to the Order. Unless you plan on signing up to be a Finder, we'll never see each other again.
Guess I just don't see why you'd give up on making new memories while you're here. Even if you never see them again, these people could be bright spots, things you want to remember. Worth it, you know? Life's short.
[This is such a funny thing to say to him for multiple reasons
But Kanda doesn't laugh, even derisively. He doesn't respond at all for a while, his gaze fixed on--the waves, maybe.
Eventually, quietly:]
I don't need anything like that. [...A little more firmly:] And you shouldn't want it either. It's only going to get harder from here on.
[It sounds harsh, just like everything else he says--but for once, it's not meant to be. It's a simple acknowledgment of fact, from someone who lives through weekends like these all the time. The closer she gets to rest of them, the harder it'll be when they die: that's just how it is. He wouldn't call her too naive to realize that, she earned that much respect from him in the cemetery--but a reminder is all he can do for her right now, when he has nothing to turn his blade against.]
[she doesn't take it badly, honestly - she thinks she knows where he's coming from.]
I'm not stupid, even if I act that way sometimes. I know it'll get harder. I've just decided I don't care. Every one of these moments could be my last one, and I'm not going out on a sour note.
[she could've shut herself away, she could've pushed everybody out. but she won't. it's just the way she chooses to do things.]
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[PRESUMABLY... and it's not like there's buckwheat on the island, so, nyeh. He isn't sulking, but the energy is kinda there.]
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I'll get you some.
[determined!! how is she going to do this. no idea.]
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Why.
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[You can't buy your way into his heart with food Karlach!!!*
(*you can a little bit)]
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[DON'T JUST DECIDE THIS]
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[All-encompassing statement that includes canon people who aren't here, as well as the one who is]
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No, you're just a pile of butts. But that's alright, I think you're funny.
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Don't.
[DON'T THINK HE'S FUNNY... DON'T THINK ABOUT HIM AT ALL ACTUALLY]
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Why not?
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Why would I want you to?!
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You haven't got anybody who just wants to sit and get to know you?
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No. [Flatly. This is so mean to Lavi who is literally right there.] There are more important things to worry about.
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Important things like what?
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I'm not going to make friends with a bunch of strangers who'll probably be dead within a month.
[Lavi notwithstanding, because he is Lavi. Also if my canonpoint was anything but what it is he probably would've made a shitty comment about Boothill by now so thank god I changed my mind]
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That's boring of you. [she says, amused.] You could find your best friend in that amount of time.
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[Who could've predicted this response. Absolutely no one]
Even if we make it out of here alive, the Rabbit and I are going right back to the Order. Unless you plan on signing up to be a Finder, we'll never see each other again.
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Yeah? And?
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But Kanda doesn't laugh, even derisively. He doesn't respond at all for a while, his gaze fixed on--the waves, maybe.
Eventually, quietly:]
I don't need anything like that. [...A little more firmly:] And you shouldn't want it either. It's only going to get harder from here on.
[It sounds harsh, just like everything else he says--but for once, it's not meant to be. It's a simple acknowledgment of fact, from someone who lives through weekends like these all the time. The closer she gets to rest of them, the harder it'll be when they die: that's just how it is. He wouldn't call her too naive to realize that, she earned that much respect from him in the cemetery--but a reminder is all he can do for her right now, when he has nothing to turn his blade against.]
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[she doesn't take it badly, honestly - she thinks she knows where he's coming from.]
I'm not stupid, even if I act that way sometimes. I know it'll get harder. I've just decided I don't care. Every one of these moments could be my last one, and I'm not going out on a sour note.
[she could've shut herself away, she could've pushed everybody out. but she won't. it's just the way she chooses to do things.]
Thanks, though. I know this is you being nice.
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