sixillusions | [catchall] Kate

[SHE IS SOOOO CUTE... MISS KATE!!!]

I'll live. [They hurt like hell actually and it's going to be SUPER weird to not be totally healed up by mid-week but no one needs to know that. Since she's probably seen Lavi and Yuffie fussing:] They'll run out of bandages if they aren't careful.

[If they haven't already. THEY PROBABLY HAVE ACTUALLY.]

That may be so, but...

[ stops to evaluate. decides that kanda probably doesn't need another lecture about his injuries right now. he's being a good boy and resting, at least (for now?). she sighs. ]

... Okay. How are you feeling... otherwise? I mean, with what's just happened, and Camille...

[ kanda seemed to be firmly on Team Stabs on the issue of whether we wanna midtrial our monsters, so inquiring minds would like to know. ]

[Hilariously he probably would've used the swamp if it didn't have SPECIFIC TERRIBLE SIDE EFFECTS but since it does he's just like. Well anyway bye.

He does frown, at that.]

Does anyone know what the hell happened? [WHY IS CAMILLE ALIVE AND WALKING AROUND. WHY DID DAAN COLLAPSE? HE HAS SUSPICIONS BUT NONE OF THEM ARE GOOD]

I suppose the ritual held her along with Aqua, but was "completed" once one of the monsters was killed, so the barrier was lifted.

[ is that what you're asking... ]

But she's still afflicted. [Pr...obably??? Truly it's a wonder he didn't throw his sword directly through her head like a javelin] Why the hell didn't they put her back inside?

[Why... is she roaming freely... he does not like this]

I assume it has to do with the conditions of the ritual... They can't just keep it going nonstop.

[ but she hasn't like. actually asked about that so maybe they have a better explanation. ]

She's in control for now. She seems like her regular self...

[Maybe not, but...]

Unless they found some new way to seal the monsters, it won't last.

Then what do we do?

[Well--he's not strictly against checking with the Overseers first, to make sure they didn't manage to come up with some kind of binding spell, but. He highly doubts it, and he isn't in the habit of sugarcoating unpleasant truths, so.]

Take her out before she kills again.

[Because as far as they know right now, those are their only options. Imprisoning her indefinitely might let her keep her life, but--personally, Kanda thinks that would be the crueler thing to do.]

... I see.

[ the smoke pouring out of her head probably says plenty about how she feels about that. ]

[Yes, well...]

It won't make her happy to let her get to that point again.

Is that what she really wants? Did she say that?

[He hasn't talked to her yet, so he can't say for certain--but personally, he'd be surprised if Camille disagreed. After what he saw in her memories...

But that's not his to share. So, instead:]

What she wants isn't more important than people's lives.

I just...

... I'm worried that if we keep killing each other to save people's lives, we're going to run out of lives to save.

...

[He doesn't like it either. He's looked and looked, and pushed the Overseers in the only ways he knows how, and it's immensely frustrating that he's got nothing to show for it. There are bits and pieces of information floating around, yes, and murmurs of progress, but that means nothing to Kanda if the bodies are just going to continue piling up around them.

He liked Cloud, but he doesn't hate Camille. He has no particular urge to run out the door and end her life. But... he's a destroyer, not a savior. He doesn't know what else can be done for her that doesn't involve an unacceptable level of risk.]

What would you want?

[If Kate was the one who'd taken a life, who would've readily taken another once she was cornered, if not for the last-minute intervention of the Overseers--if she was left to her own devices afterwards, waiting for the inevitable loss of control, for the bloodlust to take her over a second time--would she want to be allowed to live anyway? Would she not want to be freed of her anguish?]

I...

[ ... as she thinks about it, really thinks about it, smoke starts to come out in a haze. ]

... I know it sounds childish to say I wouldn't want to die, and I wouldn't want to hurt anyone either. But, still... I can't accept that those as the only options.

[This answer isn't surprising, really; he sighs, but it isn't angry. Just kind of... tired.]

Then you'll have to tell those three to work faster. [The Overseers, or whoever else is working behind the scenes, if she knows. As far as Kanda's been able to tell, his own hands are tied.] But make a choice in the meantime.

[Because as it stands--those are the only two options. All he can do for her is try and help her come to terms with that.]

[ well

she stays for a bit to absorb that, but then she just turns and quietly leaves. ]

[catchall] Kate

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