[Well he does stop, but--he holds Mugen out in warning, a clear sign of wanting distance between them the way a cat might hiss or flatten its ears. He's not so reckless in his anger that he'd strike to cause real harm, but he won't pull his claws back, either.]
What right do you have to say that? [To demand explanations when he gave none, to act like he cares about Kanda's opinion only after it's too late to let it affect him--to talk as if he isn't just one of many others who've proven Kanda's point about attachments over, and over, and over again.] I don't give a shit about your feelings. You did it. So own it, and live with your actions.
[And the consequences along with it. It's too late for pleas of understanding, as far as Kanda's concerned; there's a lot he dislikes that he could've let go of, but this, in particular, is nigh irreparable.]
[ to own it, to hold onto it, to put it out there - bare chested and open. every single day since this happened has been one of subterfuge, something he's impossible at doing, having to step away from every conversation, every mention, just because he had to keep the secret. just in case. just in case. he doesn't back off from the sword, though he stops advancing only so he doesn't get skewered. ]
The only reason any of this was swept under the rug was because we didn't want the cult at large to find out and stop it - because we weren't even sure it was going to work! It was a gamble, and I don't want to gamble with people's lives, but I'd rather have the chance to set things right than to ruin it because I couldn't keep my mouth shut.
[ unfortunately with how inscrutable kanda is, what part he actively dislikes is almost impossible to discern. it could be anything, and rondo's frustration leaks through in his voice. ]
I don't understand you. You want to do the most possible to save people's lives, I know you do, even when it's hard! Even when it's the thing that no one else wants to do, you're the first person to tell people like me to get over it! So why - why are you the one who's so upset?!
[Maybe before, he would've said this with less ice and venom, and more grumbling that, while sincere, is easy enough to ignore. Rondo's clingy, but respectful; he's naive and annoying, but sincere, and willing to step up--or try, at least, which is the most Kanda would expect from a non-exorcist.
But now, it's clear from his tone that he means it. Any chips in the wall that might've been made through time and persistence have been blocked with steel, and the back off energy he's radiating is nearly palpable.]
It's not my problem if you're so stupid that you can't see the difference between this and everything else.
[He's not in the habit of explaining himself, and he has no intention of starting now; if Rondo truly wanted to know his thoughts, he thinks, he would've asked for them before he acted. And it's not like Kanda would've told him the specifics, but--well. For one thing, he and Lavi have been very open about the sorts of threats they face in his world, and how he feels about things like necromancy and resurrection. That would've been a good place to start. And maybe, with the progress they'd made, Kanda would've said... something. More than he's saying now.
But it's too late. I don't understand you, Rondo says, and Kanda feels no desire to change that.]
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What right do you have to say that? [To demand explanations when he gave none, to act like he cares about Kanda's opinion only after it's too late to let it affect him--to talk as if he isn't just one of many others who've proven Kanda's point about attachments over, and over, and over again.] I don't give a shit about your feelings. You did it. So own it, and live with your actions.
[And the consequences along with it. It's too late for pleas of understanding, as far as Kanda's concerned; there's a lot he dislikes that he could've let go of, but this, in particular, is nigh irreparable.]
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[ to own it, to hold onto it, to put it out there - bare chested and open. every single day since this happened has been one of subterfuge, something he's impossible at doing, having to step away from every conversation, every mention, just because he had to keep the secret. just in case. just in case. he doesn't back off from the sword, though he stops advancing only so he doesn't get skewered. ]
The only reason any of this was swept under the rug was because we didn't want the cult at large to find out and stop it - because we weren't even sure it was going to work! It was a gamble, and I don't want to gamble with people's lives, but I'd rather have the chance to set things right than to ruin it because I couldn't keep my mouth shut.
[ unfortunately with how inscrutable kanda is, what part he actively dislikes is almost impossible to discern. it could be anything, and rondo's frustration leaks through in his voice. ]
I don't understand you. You want to do the most possible to save people's lives, I know you do, even when it's hard! Even when it's the thing that no one else wants to do, you're the first person to tell people like me to get over it! So why - why are you the one who's so upset?!
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[Maybe before, he would've said this with less ice and venom, and more grumbling that, while sincere, is easy enough to ignore. Rondo's clingy, but respectful; he's naive and annoying, but sincere, and willing to step up--or try, at least, which is the most Kanda would expect from a non-exorcist.
But now, it's clear from his tone that he means it. Any chips in the wall that might've been made through time and persistence have been blocked with steel, and the back off energy he's radiating is nearly palpable.]
It's not my problem if you're so stupid that you can't see the difference between this and everything else.
[He's not in the habit of explaining himself, and he has no intention of starting now; if Rondo truly wanted to know his thoughts, he thinks, he would've asked for them before he acted. And it's not like Kanda would've told him the specifics, but--well. For one thing, he and Lavi have been very open about the sorts of threats they face in his world, and how he feels about things like necromancy and resurrection. That would've been a good place to start. And maybe, with the progress they'd made, Kanda would've said... something. More than he's saying now.
But it's too late. I don't understand you, Rondo says, and Kanda feels no desire to change that.]
Get lost and don't come back. I won't ask twice.