[Hilariously I think we also just got jossed about his ability to read like the other day but EITHER WAY it was mostly just Kanda being rude and judgmental about their personalities,,, IT'S FINE
Thinks about Aventurine on the CYOA and makes a slight face
But he didn't see most of it because he was busy with (redacted) so he'll leave it at one (1) rude comment.]
These break-ins sound dangerous. [Not a judgment, just an observation... could it be because of... low rolls perhaps......]
Yes. [A little nod. He also has a lot of complex feelings about this for many reasons but it's fine.] Though something is amiss after every return. Karma lost his hearing, I lost a memory... They return eventually, but we have no way of knowing how much worse these effects will become if a person dies over and over.
[Well. Once he gets his sword back he won't be all that worried, but a brief flicker of memory--himself, facing an uncharacteristically serious Lavi who's saying Do you still not remember who those people were?--before it cuts out again.
But it doesn't seem like he has any other questions, at least for now. So it's back to silence unless Lucas breaks it.]
[HE GETS JUMPSCARED BY THESE FCKIN MEMSHARES EVERY TIME THEY HAPPEN.
It gives him pause and makes him glance over, a little startled by the seriousness of Lavi, but not wanting to ask after it even though his mind supplies: those people?
But he doesn't expect the question he hadn't intended to ask to be answered, at least. BACK TO SILENCE.........
Well. He'll let the silence stretch on for a short while, but then:] ...I apologize for the timing of it, but... may I speak to you about something?
His reaction would probably be instantaneous at any other time--the wariness of a threat assessment, mainly. But he's still recovering from the aftermath of his trip and his own murder, so he's just silent for a minute, processing.]
Yeah. Todomatsu asked. [The way Totty gets name rights because one of their first conversations was about how he killed some necromancer lady on his CYOA so Kanda has decent respect for him. So funny] He said the purple one told him not to focus on it, since whoever killed that guy wouldn't do it again.
[Because Ichiban's killer wasn't possessed, specifically, but like. Lol. lmao.]
But yeah that is so fucking funny even if he's also making a bit of a complicated face at the mention of the purple one. Why is it always fucking Scien Brofiise.]
...Well. Yes. I had no intentions of killing again.
[At least, they were a little while ago. By now, so many other things have happened that he's not sure they have the energy to hold onto it, but--he's seen the amounts of rage and hatred people are capable of.]
Lucas doesn't look surprised by this. If anything, he's more surprised when people easily move past it and treat him with kindness, even if they disapprove of what he did, or can't forgive him for it. Thinking about how at this point the only living people at the house are Lavi, Laudna, Yuffie and Kate. This is so funny they really lost so many people even before learning they'd have to near TPK.]
People should be angry. What I did stands apart from the rest.
[The other killers and their crimes, that is. He'll never begrudge a victim for being upset at their possessed killer, but he's well aware of the fact that what he did was not the same.]
ALSO LISTEN. PLEASE IM BEGGING ANYONE TO ASK HIM WHY HE FCKIN PUT A HEART IN A SACK STOP JUST GIVING HIM A PASS FOR THIS. He just interprets this as Kanda asking him what item he killed for, though; why he chose to take a life when no one else had fallen to the same temptation.]
...For the Vick's. [this is still my favorite sentence to type.] For my sister.
And you needed to rip a guy's heart out for that, huh.
[He says it kind of blandly, like he's not personally horrified because he's seen way worse, but also. My man.
He sighs, though.]
...Humans do a lot of things when they're desperate. [It's not really his place to forgive or excuse Lucas here, and he won't even bother trying. It's not his business. But it's truly not the worst thing he's ever run into, and he believes Lucas when he says he hadn't intended to kill again. It is what it is.]
[BE MORE HORRIFIED. That said, it doesn't need to be emotionshare week to know that he feels so much Catholic Guilt over this. It is so clear from his expression alone.]
...That... At the time, I wasn't in a clear state of mind.
[He's never tried to make excuses for why he targeted Ichiban, but now that he can think clearly, he hates the version of himself that thought RIPPING HEARTS OUT WAS NORMAL.]
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Hm. [I didn't think they'd work that hard. Kanda be nice.]
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Anyway he normally doesn't respond to brainmouth words but "hm" isn't giving him much, so:]
Aventurine and Boothill, you mean? They've been very well organized.
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Thinks about Aventurine on the CYOA and makes a slight face
But he didn't see most of it because he was busy with (redacted) so he'll leave it at one (1) rude comment.]
These break-ins sound dangerous. [Not a judgment, just an observation... could it be because of... low rolls perhaps......]
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...Yes. The break-ins are quite dangerous. Boothill died on the last one, and Karma on the one before that.
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...And everyone revives here.
[Thank god it's not emotionshare so I don't have to describe the exorcist feelings he is repressing]
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Yes. [A little nod. He also has a lot of complex feelings about this for many reasons but it's fine.] Though something is amiss after every return. Karma lost his hearing, I lost a memory... They return eventually, but we have no way of knowing how much worse these effects will become if a person dies over and over.
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[Well. Once he gets his sword back he won't be all that worried, but a brief flicker of memory--himself, facing an uncharacteristically serious Lavi who's saying Do you still not remember who those people were?--before it cuts out again.
But it doesn't seem like he has any other questions, at least for now. So it's back to silence unless Lucas breaks it.]
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It gives him pause and makes him glance over, a little startled by the seriousness of Lavi, but not wanting to ask after it even though his mind supplies: those people?
But he doesn't expect the question he hadn't intended to ask to be answered, at least. BACK TO SILENCE.........
Well. He'll let the silence stretch on for a short while, but then:] ...I apologize for the timing of it, but... may I speak to you about something?
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He looks over and tilts his head slightly.]
What?
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I killed Ichiban. [HELP.] ...It feels remiss not to have that information out there and continue speaking to others as normal.
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His reaction would probably be instantaneous at any other time--the wariness of a threat assessment, mainly. But he's still recovering from the aftermath of his trip and his own murder, so he's just silent for a minute, processing.]
So you're the one they told us to forget about.
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No okay, he's looking a little caught off his guard instead.]
—The... Overseers?
[WHO ELSE WOULD KNOW.]
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Yeah. Todomatsu asked. [The way Totty gets name rights because one of their first conversations was about how he killed some necromancer lady on his CYOA so Kanda has decent respect for him. So funny] He said the purple one told him not to focus on it, since whoever killed that guy wouldn't do it again.
[Because Ichiban's killer wasn't possessed, specifically, but like. Lol. lmao.]
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But yeah that is so fucking funny even if he's also making a bit of a complicated face at the mention of the purple one. Why is it always fucking Scien Brofiise.]
...Well. Yes. I had no intentions of killing again.
[He did anyway because i aki am rude]
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Kanda eyes him.]
They're pissed about it. The people at the house.
[At least, they were a little while ago. By now, so many other things have happened that he's not sure they have the energy to hold onto it, but--he's seen the amounts of rage and hatred people are capable of.]
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Lucas doesn't look surprised by this. If anything, he's more surprised when people easily move past it and treat him with kindness, even if they disapprove of what he did, or can't forgive him for it. Thinking about how at this point the only living people at the house are Lavi, Laudna, Yuffie and Kate. This is so funny they really lost so many people even before learning they'd have to near TPK.]
People should be angry. What I did stands apart from the rest.
[The other killers and their crimes, that is. He'll never begrudge a victim for being upset at their possessed killer, but he's well aware of the fact that what he did was not the same.]
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And listen it's not like he wants Lucas to be here cackling like an unrepentant villain, but Kanda looks irritated by his words anyway???]
Why the hell did you do it, then?!
[YOU CAN'T JUST RIP OUT A GUY'S HEART AND THEN BE LIKE "DAMN THAT SURE WAS FUCKED UP OF ME" well okay yes you can but like HELLO]
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ALSO LISTEN. PLEASE IM BEGGING ANYONE TO ASK HIM WHY HE FCKIN PUT A HEART IN A SACK STOP JUST GIVING HIM A PASS FOR THIS. He just interprets this as Kanda asking him what item he killed for, though; why he chose to take a life when no one else had fallen to the same temptation.]
...For the Vick's. [this is still my favorite sentence to type.] For my sister.
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What the hell is a Vick.
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...Vick's Vaporub. It was one of the swamp items.
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[He didn't pay a ton of attention to the other items in that shop beyond the resurrection board, but he did go see them, so. He remembers.]
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That's correct.
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[He says it kind of blandly, like he's not personally horrified because he's seen way worse, but also. My man.
He sighs, though.]
...Humans do a lot of things when they're desperate. [It's not really his place to forgive or excuse Lucas here, and he won't even bother trying. It's not his business. But it's truly not the worst thing he's ever run into, and he believes Lucas when he says he hadn't intended to kill again. It is what it is.]
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...That... At the time, I wasn't in a clear state of mind.
[He's never tried to make excuses for why he targeted Ichiban, but now that he can think clearly, he hates the version of himself that thought RIPPING HEARTS OUT WAS NORMAL.]
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He frowns a little.]
You weren't drugged too, were you?
[SURELY KATE AND CAMILLE DIDN'T DECIDE TO PRACTICE ON LUCAS FOR FUN FIRST? SURELY THAT DIDN'T HAPPEN.]
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