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sixillusions) wrote2024-06-10 05:38 pm
sixillusions) wrote2024-06-10 05:38 pm
[catchall] Aqua
I know(?) this isn't dark aqua but still
I know(?) this isn't dark aqua but still
I know(?) this isn't dark aqua but still
I know(?) this isn't dark aqua but still
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That's true. But even so... It's not easy making that decision, either.
[ IT WOULDN'T HURT! TO GIVE SOME EMOTIONAL SUPPORT! there's still pain and suffering involved.
but... she'd be able to understand where kanda is coming from, too. she'd be a lot more torn up this weekend if it weren't for the promise that they're not actually dead. they're still making tangible progress, though of course the cost is always unpleasant. ]
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...No. [He's not all that mature, but he can acknowledge that much. Even with tangible proof, it's not easy to believe that "death" is fake, or to understand that going through the pain and fear is the only way to get to safety.] But they don't have much time to think about it.
[Though, privately, he thinks that Lavi is more likely to trust his word over anything else they've found, and that he likely won't hesitate that much once he realizes what needs to be done--but that's why he sent off his own note, insensitive as it was.]
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Right. I'm guessing they might have to come to a decision this upcoming week.
[ the mood is just... a sigh. but it's stable otherwise, resolved. ]
...How have you been? I've been meaning to ask.
[ SHE'S BARELY HAD A CHANCE TO INTERACT WITH HIM SINCE HE SHOWED UP save for the pardi soba and CATTE... and while she figures he probably prefers it that way, she'd still like to know how he's doing, and if there's anything she can do to help. ]
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If they're smart, they'll only leave one person behind. But they'll probably be too reluctant to kill that many.
[Even with 3827582365 messages telling them to kill as much as possible. But there's nothing he can do about it from here apart from continuing to write blatant, straightforward letters, so... he's trying not to get caught up in restlessness.
As for the rest--there's a crack in his carefully neutral emotions, betraying a complicated tangle of discomfort and uncertainty, but if he notices, he doesn't acknowledge it.]
I'm fine. [It's mostly true! Kind of! Repression! ...But since it's Aqua, he can give her a tiny bit more.] There's more space here.
[More opportunities to find quiet places where he won't be bothered, which he likes.]
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[ she's not sure why one is somehow better than five... it feels like more deaths than strictly necessary. (OOCLY I'M SORRY MY BRAIN IS SOUP!) ]
...We do have more privacy here, and much more to explore.
[ she doesn't comment on the discomfort she feels, though she tries to keep her own vibes calm and reassuring. ]
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Because we already know they'll start over if we bring everyone over, so we have to leave someone there. [Which really fucking sucks. He doesn't envy the living in having to make that decision.] The cult needs six or more for their god. Whoever's left behind is probably going to be sacrificed anyway, especially if there are four or five of them.
[They're so close to the ritual now--he can't imagine the cult won't try some desperate, last-ditch effort to summon their god even if they don't have what they need, and the chances of that are higher the closer to "6" they leave, he thinks. He'd rather get as many people out of their hands and brought here, to safety, as they possibly can, even the method of getting here is terrible.]
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Do we know for sure if the remaining sacrifices won't be able to make it here safely?
[ to silent hill, she means, after they've been killed in the ritual. she'd thought it was a possibility, but that's her wishful thinking and also my soup brain... ]
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[Something to ask Nehan, perhaps... if it came up I don't remember
But, more importantly:]
Are you willing to risk it?
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Of course not. But... it's not up to me to decide. [ since she's no longer on the living side and all. ]
Until we have a clearer plan... there are risks either way. We don't know how many people this machine can teleport, or what it'll really do yet. [ she mostly means she hopes it doesn't just explode again ] Though hopefully, we'll find that answer soon.
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[Well, that much is true. Normally, Kanda would be less inclined to influence their decisions. Part of his anger over the Camille situation was about the way her choices had been taken from her, after all. But Kanda's built his identity around being willing to make hard, shitty choices. He doesn't care what people think of him or how he handles things--they can hate him all they want, so long as they're alive to do it. And he isn't selfless enough to leave Lavi on the other side, even if it means forcing his hand.
But all they can do is write, in the end. It's up to the living to act.]
The purple one had those machine parts, earlier. [He means Scien] You can talk to him about it.
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I'll keep that in mind. Thank you.